10 years ago today my daughter was born 4am on February 14th 2012. In this picture I am the skinniest I’ve ever been. To depressed to train, my muscle mass dropped away. I haven’t slept properly for months. I had Hurt all the people in my life. I was 33 and had kicked the last ball as a professional footballer. I was months from rehab for an emotional breakdown. I had no money and was in debt and no professional club would touch such ‘ damaged ‘ and inconsistent goods. So today yes it’s beautiful that my daughter is 10 and I am blessed. What the real story is though is FEAR. Why was I in this state? How could a guy who was an outstanding professional who was disciplined and always the hardest worker in the room be so broken? Why did I feel the need to lock myself away for days and loathe? Well in a word FEAR I was always scared. Scared of the future. After all that’s where fear lives. Scared of not fulfilling my talent, scared of being humiliated on the pitch, scared of not making enough money, scared of losing my place in the team, scared of my girlfriend cheating on me. Scared. Was I weak? Nooooo. I was hugely and AM hugely resilient . I am courageous and tough. I am also very emotional and very sensitive. I am hugely driven. You see if you put all of this together you have overwhelming FEAR. Drive is all about tomorrow. Fears are all about tomorrow. I had no idea HOW to let go. WHAT was surrender. I was charging on with work work work. Control control control Perfectionism perfectionism perfectionism. So here we are 10 years on. I have worked like a dog. THAT can never change. SHOULD never change. But the game changer, the complete life change has been to step into each day on my knees surrendering to all outcomes but with the courage to be me. The courage to be authentic. Come what may I will be authentic. Fear never goes away as the future doesn’t but SWEAT & COURAGE. understanding them and living them are immense. In the 10 years since that day. I built a business assessing and solving movement issues. Over 4 years servicing 30 players a week. Top players. We were Turning over in excess of £300k a year. The next 6 years, I have travelled all over the world to talk and consult. I have written a book I have a podcast I have coached so many top performers in sport and business I wrote and delivered courses and of course I launched this app. I remarried. I have another son and twins soon! We have a beautiful house. I am truly blessed. BUT…. Guys this is about sweat and courage and surrender. So i say this. Understand fear. We can’t control anything. Surrender. But we MUST be authentic. Everything I have today is because of authenticity. When I was a great player it was the courage to ignore all instructions and be me. Thanks all for your support and I will continue to share my hard earned insights and wisdoms with you. Continue to look at fear and if you’re a leader or coach please understand it in others.

Posted by Drewe Broughton at 2022-02-14 07:41:43 UTC